The meaning?

We ask ourselves whether life has meaning, I dont know. I hurt so much inside and I wonder if the meaning of my life is to just feel pain. I look at my daughter and hope that she never has to endure the pain that I feel, that she will have a much better meaning than mine. I am doing the best to wear a mask of happiness, so that my little girl doesn't have to see the pain I feel for the loss of the man she calls Daddy. I cry every night, how long will I have to do that? Will it ever get better?

From platinum to brunette

Today I put my big girl panties on and went dark. I have been platinum blonde for about five years and my sister Coco talked me into dark hair. I love it and so does my baby girl Lorna.

life?

I just downloaded this blogger, found an old blog from 2006.  I can't believe how time has flown. I'm getting divorced, Lorna is six and I am scared to death of the future.

So far...

I am starting to get the hang of being a Mama. Baby Lorna is starting to develop a personality, which seems to be quite similar to mine. Some days she is so wonderful, takes her naps without fuss. Today, however, she did not want a nap. I finally got her to go to sleep.

Those of you that don't know, Lorna was born April 18, 2006. She is my first and my last child. I will not endure another pregnancy. I have experienced it once and that is plenty.

I have lots of learning to do, and so does she. We will experience it together as she discovers her new world.